16 weeks 4 days

I received my diaper bag yesterday and I LOVE IT! It's huge and has tons of space. I'm really glad I got it. G liked it too.

So now that I'm in my 17th week, I'm totally feeling the baby more. It's not kicks or anything, just more of the flutters and bubbles feeling I was already feeling. Sometimes it almost feels like something rubbed against my skin, but from the inside! It's so weird but cool. I feel it a lot in the morning when I'm sitting at my desk.

On the not so bright side, I still have morning sickness!!!! And it returned full force this week. Sucks. I actually threw up at work yesterday for the first time. I threw up twice in the morning yesterday, which I had never done! I'm really losing hope that this will ever go away. Also on this not so bright side, more stretch marks!! ARGH! I need to just accept them, but it sucks because they turn red within a day.

Some Hearts

Feeling better today. Last night we used the doppler again. I had been a little worried because when we've used it the heart beat has been pretty low and not steady. We haven't been able to get a clear reading. But last night we got a good reading of 136. Pretty low but in the range of 125-160. Lazy baby. I'm hoping that at our doctor's appt tomorrow she does an ultra sound or at least uses a doppler. Maybe then we can get a better reading. Looking forward to our appt!

I'm also looking forward to Saturday as I'll be 14 weeks and officially in the 2nd trimester! the nausea has decreased the last 2 days. I'm a little nauseous in the morning but then i'm great all day. I only get nauseous if i wait too long to eat, and then sometimes late at night. I must have snacks every couple of hours. If I feel hungry, then I feel nauseous. Which is starting to happen now [reaching for granola bar]. I've also notice my appetite is back and I can eat more. I was so sick before that I hardly ate. Now I need normal portions to fill me up. Guess I shouldn't be surprised if I've gained a few pounds at my appt tomorrow. The heart burn hasn't been bad this week. I've started incorporating spicy food into my diet again [i missed it too much!] and so far so good! So things are looking up!

Allergic to my home

Gosh this sucks. To have such a strong aversion to your own home! So I have been spending about 4 days out of the week at my moms house. I sleep there and everything. Our apartment has just been making me way way too sick. I can't stand the smell of the place. Even when it has just been cleaned. The craziest part is that i'm gagging just typing about it! I can't even talk about my apartment without gagging! WTF?!! I mean every one tells me they have had 1 thing that they really couldn't stand during the "morning sickness" stage. I guess for me that 1 thing is our apartment.

Well, I actually have 2 things. Refridgerators. I can't open a fridge without throwing up. Not sure what it is. Maybe all the smells.....or the food. I just can't. So being alone is very hard for me right now. I can barely feed myself. I mean how ridiculous is this!?!?! Sometimes I feel ashamed. I feel so bad for G because he basically has to take care of me and make all my meals. Poor guy. I feel so handicap. Seriously praying this only last 1 more week. PLEASE!