1 week appt update

First off, I think La Leche League did find me. But they're trying to be slick by posting on my regular blog. I can feel the pin stab from the scarlet letter "F." I'm alright with this though. I will embrace it just as Demi Moore did. I am/was fully educated and aware of the benefits of breastfeeding. I read all the books. So please know I am making an educated decision. For the record - I will NOT be breastfeeding. This is my choice and I am happy with it. Our pediatrician is happy with it. She says his formula [Similac Advance] is the best he can get right now so he'll be fine. After many days of going back and forth and trying to get Andres to latch on unsuccessfully, I have made my decision.

Thank You

On to better news.

Andres is growing strong!! He is now 7lbs even and has grown a half inch. Doc says he is gaining about 2oz per day. They like to see a 1/2 - 1 oz per day so he is way past that. He is in the 25th percentile for all 3 measurements - head, weight, and length. He was so good at the appointment. Only cried at the end because he was really hungry and we didn't have his bottle. But he quieted down and patiently waited for me to finish his paperwork. I love this kid. <3

We also made our visit to my parent's house. It was soooooo nice to get out! I was totally getting cabin fever. Although G is pretty damn paranoid about everything. About me being out, about Andres being out, about driving with Andres. I never thought he would be so paranoid and I would be soooo laid back. I can't believe how laid back i am. I'm a total control freak and now i'm just so chill about parenting. Weird. Wonder if it'll change. Actually, maybe it's just the Vicodin making me so laid back. Hmmmmm. But G just freaks out about everything. Last night he fell asleep all late because every time Andres made a sound in his bassinet G would get up to check on him. I mean it's totally cute and it makes my heart melt, but that is crazy. G has totally become "one of those" parents that checks on his kid every 5 minutes to make sure he is breathing. I just pass out when i go to bed. But for some reason I'm the only one who hears when Andres starts waking up. I have to wake G up.

One thing I am having trouble with is sleeping during the day. No matter how tired I am I cannot sleep during the day. I know what people say, but I can't rest. I can't stop finding things to do. Tomorrow I will try reading when Andres is napping in hopes that it'll make me fall asleep.

Speaking of sleep, I' effing tired! I must go to bed.

1 week 1 day

Broken Boobs

So my boobs must be broken because my milk NEVER came in. So formula it is. I got the colostrum, which I was able to give to Andres a few times. Even leaked that a tiny bit once, but it was never seen again. I kept waiting for my boobs to get all huge, engorged, hard, painful, etc. and nothing. Nada. Maybe I didn't try hard enough. I mean I would get Andres to latch on. There was just nothing for him. Oh well. I wanted to breastfeed so bad I'm surprised I wasn't more upset about this. I think it's because we have really fallen into a schedule with feedings. And I love that G can feed Andres anytime. Andres seems perfectly happy with formula. We've had no issues. I hope the Leche League doesn't read this and come pin me with a scarlet 'F' for formula...or failure...either way.

In other news, Andres has his first pediatric visit today. It'll also be mine and Andres' first time out since coming home! I am SO getting cabin fever! I am ready to be out and about and enjoying my maternity leave with Andres. I know it has only been a week and a had a c-section. But my recovery has been awesome. I'm sore and have some pain and discomfort, but nothing outta control. I don't even take my vicodin. Just ibuprofen every now and then. OMG we should totally go have sushi for lunch tomorrow! GAWD I MISS SUSHI!!! RAW SUSHI!!! SASHIMI!!! And we can introduce Andres to Jimmy our sushi chef! Maybe we'll just get it to go as Andres may be too young to go out. Hmmm...better ask his pedi tomorrow.

Last night I also had my 1st postpartum beer! It was soooo good. I missed alcohol. Especially toward the end of pregnancy. The summer heat just makes a cold one look so much more appealing. I celebrated the end of trying to breastfeed with no milk and the end to pain meds. Also to the beginning of parenthood.

Alright it's almost 1am and Andres will be up in 2 hours. I was so tired earlier...I don't know what happened. Damn internet. I hadn't been on in forever and now I can't get off. It's an illness.


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